Hello one and all!
Today I decided to revisit letter art; however, unlike my previous attempt, this time I decided to focus on one single image instead of several smaller components.
I quickly discovered that it is much harder to seamlessly produce a larger letter given the medium I was using. Perhaps I have always known it is harder to pull off larger drawings, as my art has always tended towards the smaller size. In fact, much of what I do is centered around the idea of being small and quiet: my handwriting is small, my fashion style muted, and my aspirations unambitious.
The smaller I draw, the smaller the flaws. The smaller I write, the less space I take. The darker I dress, the less attention I draw. The closer I dream, the less room I have to fail.
I am not a perfectionist by any means, but I do have some tendencies reminiscent of that mindset. If I fail, I want it to be in private. I don’t want anyone to see my flaws, which is probably a factor behind both my low participation in school and my reluctance to show my body to others. If I do something, I want to do it right, which sometimes leads to me not doing it at all.
I have to wonder though: is thinking and acting small a failure all on its own? There is a difference between being realistic (I will never be a famous singer) and letting my idea of a possible future be held back by nothing more than my own insecurities (“I could never own my own business” – even though right now I see it as a real possibility I can pursue).
The bigger the attempt, the larger the possible mistakes. As true as that may be, it may not be a good enough reason to not try at all.
Are you holding yourself back from your own dreams?
As always, much love!